| "workaholic-ism" |
[16 Mar 2008|10:27am] |
yeah, right. 
these days i keep going back to the 'life lessons' teachers have been going on about for ages, the "when you get to the real world..." lessons. i don't recall showbiz in the workforce. nuh-uh...not one bit warns me about that part.
i wish somebody had warned me sooner that working is like going to kindergarten all over again, except there are no nap times and milk 'n cookies. and people are older but not necessarily more mature.
thank God, as in a million times, for weekends. they're all i live for nowadays. and my friends. okay, and some relatives, too.  it would be one helluva boring life without those people. and Lord knows boredom is so last year (when i was still an effin bum).
so i'll get on with my not-so-boring-life-anymore, together with my kindergarten classmates. besides, i'm sure i'll find a way to sneak in those nap times and milk 'n cookies, if you catch my drift.
and, yes, this entry is full of ironies and metaphors (as in the hidden between corners and crevices kind of metaphors).
|
|
| my very own daemon |
[19 Dec 2007|04:44pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 giddy |
] |
okay...i'm here in bella's house now with camry for our "termly" sleepover. and this is what we did...look at the golden compass website and identify what form our very own daemons will take. this is mine...
|
|
| reaction to Virginia Tech incident |
[19 Apr 2007|12:44am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 angry |
] |
Why would people care more about country to country relations than the psychotic mind of a murderer? Who cares if a country's external relations with another country is in jeopardy? What matters is the people that murderer killed and their families. Have you people no shame? Pay respects to the people who died, don't pretend to care when you're actually just worried about politics.
Mahiya naman kayo sa mga namatay. Ang kakapal naman ng mga mukha ninyo, pinopolitika pa ninyo yung nangyari. Tao ba kayo?
I don't give a shit if your whole country is in grief. If that grief isn't heartfelt and true, then damn you. Just shut up and let the families of those who died grieve in peace. If, however, you are truly sorry for what happened, then well and good. But maybe you should rethink the whole public mourning thing...it doesn't project a good image.
For those politicizing this tragic event and just masking it with concern and fake guilt, have you no eyes to see your faces in the mirror? People are not as stupid as you think. We can see right through your "concern." So, please, just do us all a favor and keep your mouths shut.
|
|
| sobrang late...stuff from camry's short homecoming |
[10 Apr 2007|10:03am] |
|
i was so tamad to put this that's why it's so late...these are some pictures from camry's short vacation here. pictures include bella sleeping in the sleepover...yeah, that's not such a surprise, but she slept in the middle of the afternoon! caught ya! haha...^_^
and the last two pictures are our adventures (or misadventures) during the anime convention last april 1 in mega mall. talk about april fool's day. *_*
camry and bella!!! we have to do this again when camry returns from japan. i don't know how long i'm going to stay in the country, so we better make the most of it when camry returns. ^_^
*just look at my multiply site if you want to see the pictures. i have no idea how to post pictures here...the whole photo bucket thing is just so confusing.
|
|
| - - - |
[05 Apr 2007|12:08pm] |
|
WHAT'S SO FUNNY?!!!!!!
|
|
| another term down, ONE MORE TO GO!!! |
[21 Dec 2006|01:07am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 bouncy |
] |
aahhhh!!! i can't believe that this term is over, it's like i'm not used to not doing anything or worrying about having to do something. i've been totally bumming around, reading books, watching DVDs and anime and the series that i missed out on, and trying to piece together a friggin' 1000-piece puzzle. life is extremely rad right now...and i'm loving every second. though i can't seem to shake off the 'OMG, I'm not doing anything' paranoia...but other than that, i'm feeling A-ok.
i feel especially happy because i got my grades last tuesday and found out that i am eligible for the dean's list. whoopeee!!! i haven't been included in the list in like ages, and being included again, in a term with our department's nightmare professor, is an honorable feat. i feel like i can conquer anything...^_^ now, all i'm worried about is getting the last term done and staying alive while i'm at it. XD
however, one thing put a damper in my chipper mood...i miss my friend who's in japan right now, camry. it was weird ending the term without our usual sleepover. it was like our time to have fun because the rest of the term we rarely get to see each other even if we're in the same school. now she's in another country, and that makes it even harder to contact each other. *sigh*
if you're reading this, camry, i miss you!!! even if you are a "meeper" and a shounen-ai drooler. wahahaha... :P
|
|
| i'm twenteen!!! |
[21 Nov 2006|12:26pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 i've been alive for 20 yrs! |
] |
it's my birthday...i don't feel that anything has changed.
suffice it to say that i didn't get any taller. why couldn't i have gotten height genes from someone other than my grandmother? who, by the way, is shorter than me (and that's saying a whole lot, believe me).
*sigh* sometimes i wish i was back to being in grade school or even as far back as kindergarten so i can actaully enjoy my birthday. then, when i think about it, if that came true, i'd have to do all this growing up crap all over again. NO THANKS! i'm already stumbling and bleeding the first time, i don't want to have to think about doing it the second time around.
will growing up ever get any easier? will every birthday get sadder and lonelier? will i ever stop asking hypothetical questions?
whee...happy birthday to me. *sigh*
|
|
| electricity-dependent |
[01 Oct 2006|01:36pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
mad at me |
] |
ugh...a four-day weekend down the drain. it was spent counting the minutes 'til the lights are back on again. i can't believe i even thought it but i did ~ "I'd rather be in school than be stuck at home where it's brown-out." i almost choked on that one, but it still came out.
the only highlight of my so-called long weekend was when we went to the powerbooks warehouse because it was on sale. but the place also popped my happiness balloon because there are more books to be found in national in alabang (and that's saying a lot) than there. yet, despite that rant, i still managed to score 4 books...which can wait to be devoured, stuff to do for school and all.
am i such a prude for worrying about my boredom rather than take a look at what the typhoon brought upon our country? ugh...i feel sick and guilty.
|
|
| "diseased" |
[02 Aug 2006|09:03pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 drained |
] |
i'm sick...i have a bad case of the flu. i've been like a dog in school, coughing here and there. argh! i really believe that i've been sick more times in college than in high school, and i haven't even graduated yet! maybe this is all due to stress...when there's school, i'm stressed but when there's no school, i'm bored out of my wits. WTF?!
not to mention that i can't think straight. maybe it's the flu or i don't know, but my brain has been malfunctioning lately. talk about a bad case of brain lag. i've been slow in the pick-up department that i feel like a clone of H.B.* oh gosh, i wish this flu would go away because i miss my normal functioning brain!!!
____________________________________
*H.B. are the initials of a classmate of mine who, let’s just say, is a dumb blonde without the blonde hair. Sort of like Paris Hilton, who I think she idolizes. :P
|
|
| just a little rant |
[25 Jul 2006|05:06pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 just plain bored |
] |
i think i now know why high school musical is the most successful original disney movie to date...it had a damn good publicity! imagine, a month before it was to be shown, disney channel was already building up hype about it. trailers, videos, interviews, you name it, they've got it.
so, when it was actually shown, it became such a sensation. everyone watched it because they wanted to see what it was about. i mean, after all that publicity it had to at least have been a tad bit good.
never mind that it had a cheesy story or uber-positive songs, the fact was, everyone got hooked on it. whatever disney did, it worked. it even exceeded expectations. it wasn't enough that people watch it, they had to remember and memorize each dance step, each line, and each freaking song.
thank you, disney, for giving everyone the damnable yet inescapable last song syndrome.
and you know the bad part? i may actually sound as if i'm ranting when in fact, i'm part of the LSS crowd. just great...
|
|
| how does that feel? |
[10 Jul 2006|11:59am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
contemplative |
] |
like what meg ryan said in "you've got mail," i just want to throw this entry out to the void. it's a random musing, it popped inside my head and i just wanted to let it out.
it came to me that in the whole nineteen years (and counting) of my life, i have never fallen in love. and it's not that i think i'm incomplete without that experience, it's just that as i get older and meet other people, i've been hearing more and more of falling in and out of love. not to mention that movies and shows today more often than not have love as its central theme.
don't get me wrong, i don't begrudge people for experiencing love, but i have never felt that before and can't exactly relate when people talk about it. i've read about love and seen it in movies and on TV, but i wanna know if that's true or just a fancy way of putting love. i wanna see for myself if it's really as exhilirating and exciting as it seems. i wanna see if it hurts and feels good at the same time. i wanna know how it feels.
but then i realized, do i really need to feel the sensation of falling in (and out) of love to complete my life? if i never experience it, would i feel any less happier or content?
i think i already know the answer to that, enough for me to say that some questions don't necessarily need to be answered. not all things in this world are meant to be found and explored, what matters most is you live your life the way you see fit.
and i'm gonna do just that, even if i never experience falling in love.
|
|
| nobody but me |
[10 Jul 2006|11:00am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 refreshed |
] |
i've really got no one to blame but me
i can't keep on looking to others and say that it's their fault my life is this way...that would be so hypocritical of me
after all, who makes these choices? me, me, me, I, I, I
so i have to put up with the consequences
i have to learn from my mistakes
so that i won't put the blame on somebody else or myself
after all, i'm the one who's going to have to live with my choices, not them.
if i want to be treated as a mature, responsible adult (despite all references to my height and looks), then i'm gonna have to start acting like one. heck, let's take it a step further...i'm not gonna act like an adult, i'm gonna be one. a genuine adult...will take a lot of might, but it's not impossible.
|
|
| of futures and regrets |
[25 Jun 2006|11:40am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
confused |
] |
lately i've been doubting my choice of course, i just don't see the point in it anymore. i know it's important and i should feel that it is, but i just don't. not like i used to.
what's gotten into me?
i don't get bored easy and i'm not the type to give up, especially when i'm almost near the finish line, but i feel like quitting and giving up on my course. it doesn't interest or challenge me. not like it used to.
what's gotten into me?
i need to find out so i can remedy this situation. i have to...so i can know for sure if i still love my course. like i used to.
|
|
| back to reality |
[23 May 2006|03:49pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 crappy |
] |
we are now officially back in school. whoopee...
and already we are bombarded with assignments, research papers and stuff to read. another whoopee...
and it's our 2nd time to have that awful teacher, under whom i barely passed last term. can i get another whoopee?
this term is just full of whoopee's isn't it? whoopee...
|
|
| musings of a madwoman ^_- |
[17 May 2006|07:19pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
whatever the future holds... |
] |
there are only a few days left 'til school starts once more...i haven't even had the opportunity to breathe in the summer and then it's already time for school to start? oh, great. i just can't wait for college to be over, but then i have no idea what's waiting for me after. and it scares me.
i've always had a plan ready, but now i'm completely at a loss. i just don't know what i'm gonna do after college. and shouldn't it be clear to you what you want by this stage? people around me have been talking about what they want to do after college, and i say this and that when they ask me. but in reality i'm not sure that's what i want.
i know you don't always get what you want, but i don't want to waste my life by doing something i would regret and despise. i want to be able to enjoy my life so that even if death is calling (no matter how morbid that sounds) i am sure to have no regrets. this is gonna sound weird, but when people come to my wake and they look at my face in the coffin, i want them to see me smiling...like i'm content and ready to enter the afterlife.
i guess in the end that's all i want. no matter what i do in the future, just as long as i'm happy doing it, then it's okay. after all, it's my life, who else is gonna live it but me, right? ^_^
|
|
| this bites |
[04 Apr 2006|01:02pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 it's called lack of sleep |
] |
it's the start of another hellish week for me.
YAY!
WELCOME TO MY LIFE, DEATH!
Thanks a lot for taking the time to make my "last days" as excruciatingly long and painful as possible. You sure seem to be having a good time too. That makes one of us.
Oh, next time, could you make sure that you play favorite with somebody else? Because my life is interesting enough as it is without your input.
|
|
| you're hopeless... |
[27 Mar 2006|12:07am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
you just suck! |
] |
seriously, man, you have got to change your attitude if you want people to love you. and i mean really love you...because you do know that love and fear aren't the same, right?
all i'm saying is, if you don't want what happened to your pop and what's happening to your ma, then don't be such an ass. sheesh, it's like you're purposely doing everything you can to die old and alone. but if that's really what you want, i'm not gonna stop you. actually, even if you don't want that to happen, it's too late because we can all see that all you really love is yourself.
so what better way to leave this existence than being with the one you love most?(and if you didn't get who that is then you're dumber than i thought)
get another life, dude, because you sure as hell ain't succeeding in this one.
|
|
| obsessed much? |
[19 Mar 2006|08:15pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 freak! |
] |
okay, i'm really suppose to be studying for an exam we're having on tuesday, but here i am, fixing my journal. crap! oh well, at least i had fun doing it. :P
talk about looking for just about any excuse to forego studying...
|
|
| a tribute to b*tches |
[14 Mar 2006|02:03pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
i'm a giddy dog-loving person! |
] |
this may seem like an angsty entry judging by the title, but it really isn't. last night, i watched an episode of tyra banks' show and it featured divas with b*tchy attitudes. however, that is not the focus of my entry. it's this: before the show ended, it featured a fashion show for FEMALE DOGS (get the pun? :P), and it got me thinking of my own pet.
shana is my cute, adorable, and heaven-sent shih tzu. she has her way of making me feel special when i'm feeling down in the dumps. it's like she can understand what i'm feeling, and without words she cuddles and lies down beside me, and just stays there, comforting me in more ways than one. it's weird because when i talk to her, saying random words, she cocks her head from side to side, like she's trying to comprehend what i'm saying. but when i'm simply lying there, not talking, she immediately knows what's going through my head.
so, this entry is dedicated to her and all the pets out there for making their masters' lives worth living. it goes to show that even those beings we consider as 'beneath' us can teach us a thing or two about love and life. in the same way, this entry is also for the pet-lovers out there, because they know how to appreciate the simple pleasures in life. and they know love when they see it...in their pets' eyes.
P.S. For all those animal abusers out there, let me just say that the quote do unto others what you would have them do unto you applies to animals and all other things on earth as well. so, beware!!! :P
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1){kind=small}
fei_fei_chan's journal
300 fever!